"To you women of today, who are old or young, may I suggest to you that you write, that you keep journals, that you express your thoughts on paper. Writing is a great discipline. It is a tremendous education effort. It will assist you in various ways, and you will bless the lives of many--now and in the years to come, as you put on paper some of your experiences and some of your musings."
- President Gordon B. Hinckley
Therefore I have some thoughts that need documenting. I use to keep a journal, but this is pretty much all I can do these days and I think it works just fine.
- We just had an election. I've never been one that's been huge on politics. That probably has to do with this being the first time I was old enough (in 2008 I was still a kid - I guess that's what motherhood does to you) to care and have an opinion. I had many friends who have extremely heated opinions and arguments with each other about the two men running for President. Here is what I thought - just for journalings sake. As I was watching the debates I honestly thought that both men were good men who would do the best they possibly could for our country. Hold on people... it's okay - just my opinion. I can hear my father's stomach churning as I type this. But that is what I really thought. I don't feel that President Obama is some insane terrorist who is going to single handedly ruin everything our forefathers has worked to establish for this country. Not a bit. Although I am not THAT educated on politics, the main reason President Obama did not get my vote is because of his stance on abortion. I can not tolerate it in the least. Mitt Romney had my vote and I would have liked to have seen what he could do for our nation, but I have hope that President Obama will do a good job finishing what he started in his second term.
- Being Facebook was a total war zone during the elections and I felt as though everyone were going to kill each other over their political views, people were posting a lot of things about the war and other horrible things that are happening all over the world. Some included pictures of children hurt in bombings, starving children around the world, abused women in India, sex traffic women... I hope this doesn't come across wrong, but I prefer my world of semi-ignorance. I'm not saying that I'm some uppity person who doesn't care, that's the total opposite. I care. I care so much that my heart just aches. I know that there are people suffering all over the world in so many horrible instances. I can't stand to think how people actually live their lives as I'm happily going about diaper changing and driving to Walmart. When I went to Africa back in 2007 I struggled with the thought as to why God had given me the life I'd been given and why not those people? I am so blessed, but why me? It just doesn't seem fair. I know there is so much heartache and horrible things, but I don't want it casually thrown in my face on Facebook. When I say my prayers at night I pray to Heavenly Father for people to have peace. That sounds so small and insignificant, but what more can I do? I look forward to the day of the second coming when Christ will come to this Earth and stop the evil and heartache from happening. There is so much pain and suffering in so many different ways whether it be physical, emotional, etc that just needs to be relieved. The sad thing is, is that it's only going to get worse. It's like I want to be ignorant about what's really going on, but I can't. So I guess what I'm saying is... to the world who will never read this... I know you are suffering. I'm so sorry and my heart honestly aches and it brings tears to my eyes as I'm sitting here holding my perfect baby girl. I am so blessed and I pray for you, even though I don't know you. But to my friends on Facebook - because that's the only place I see it - I don't need to see the picture of the little girl who was hurt in the explosion. It's too much and affects me in such a deep way and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.
Being a Wise Optimist
- We had stake conference this past Sunday. There was a talk given by Brother Holland (or was it Eyring that said it) that talked about being a wise optimist in these last days. There is so much talk about the end of the world and how crazy it could get. Sometimes it just scares me so much. I wouldn't mind if it were just me fending for myself, but when I have to think about how I will provide for my two babies it terrifies me. Elder Holland's talk brought peace to my heart though. We don't need to live in fear and worry about the last days. We also don't need to act like nothing is going to happen because it has been prophesied. We need to be wise and optimistic about the future. We need to get our food storage and other things in order so that we will be prepared for our families. After that is in place we need to be optimistic. There is no reason to gloom and worry about how it's all going to go down. God will help the faithful. The other area where I need to be a wise optimist is in the area of raising my children. Right now I've got it down. I can predict what that 2 year old is going to do and (half the time) help him before it gets too out of control. But what I am terrified about it the teenage years. This world is so crazy and the youth are so confused that I worry what the world is going to do to my precious babies. About a month before I had Marae I panicked about bringing a girl into this world where virtue and the value of women is so defiled. The thought of her being a teenager and surrounded by the media and other influences had me crying for the unknown. As a righteous mother (I can call myself that because the motives are there) I am striving to raise my children with the values they need to be an example to the world. I will be a wise optimist and have faith that my efforts will be enough to guide them home to their Heavenly Father.
Are you still there? If you are, thanks for letting me unload my brain into the cyber realms of this personal blog. I hope I haven't offended anyone.